at the still point, there the dance is  ~ T. S. Elliott   The word stillness comes from the Middle English, stillnesse for tranquility, peace, security. It’s paradoxical to think of dancing in stillness, but isn’t that what many of us are doing now? It’s been a month of social isolation for me, my husband…

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  Five years ago I wrote about being sixty-one.   Five years is a short time. Five years is a long time. Five years is an arbitrary amount of time, like my age.   Sixty-six.   I’ve been alive for over 24,000 days, living them one day at a time. One moment at a time.…

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one restless night I woke thirsty      itchy   wings grew out of my shoulders   silly girl, she said turtles don’t have wings oh yes they do   my shell is heavy my legs are slow   but when the moon is full, I sprout my wings and fly far away remembering desire…

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My first blog, Many Rivers To Cross, started out as a travel blog and eventually morphed into a nature blog. I was so afraid of being online that I used mountain mama for my identity. Eventually I became more comfortable and open about who I am. What you see is what you get now, both online…

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Yes, I’ve been around the block a time or two, maybe three. I know what my self-talk patterns are really about. Cycles of despair. Neural ruts. They sound like this. I feel fat. I hate myself. If I eat, I’ll feel better. No, really. If I eat too much then I can obsess over my…

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One of the benefits of getting older is the ability to evaluate our life’s experiences. Long forgotten youthful passions come to light once more. We can pick up dropped threads and weave them back into the fabric of our lives.   “As we enter 2015 we are conscious not only of the Feminine Principle, but of…

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  On October 23, 2013, Scott Dinsmore from Live Your Legend, wrote a post on Painful Authenticity.  He listed 35 stories, fears and facts about himself.   #30.  I’m really scared of getting old. I turned 31 this year, and it’s been kind of tough realizing that I’m not a total beginner anymore. That adds…

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    The knowledge of the past stays with us.  To let go is to release the images and emotions, the grudges and the fears, the clingings and the disappointments of the past that bind our spirits.  ~Jack Kornfield   You are the center from which your life flows in ever changing cycles.   Where…

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  Hello darkness my old friend, I’ve come to talk to you again ~Sounds of Silence, Simon and Garfunkel   I could tell you a long story about the threads of shame in my life.  It’s not what’s important, though.  Suffice it to say that recently I made a stupid mistake that triggered deep feelings…

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  Oh soul, you worry too much. You have seen your own strength. You have seen your own beauty. You have seen your golden wings. Of anything less, why do you worry? You are in truth the soul, of the soul, of the soul. ~Rumi   I worry.  I research.  I write like a grad…

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